Update

Yesterday was a terrible day for me! 11.30am was my lunch break, but life in tpn isn't like that. But my colleague has been looking for me to go for lunch together. Their appearance in tpn is just urging me to leave on that time! But, i havent finish my job yet! Counterchecking haven't done yet, but PA haven't prepare the paperwork, so i can't do the countercheck yet too! n there r new cases yesterday, n my preceptor had to do all the clerking. But always, when i do the clerking, i think she still prefer herself to do the clerking case. So.. i left without finishing what i suppose to do. But .. there is a mix emotion at that time, to leave or not, to go out eat or not! but at last i left! On the way walking to the car park, my high heels got broken due to my colleague stepping at my back shoe! that time, it's jus "oh sh*t!" then how m i suppose to continue walking here n there later? huh. but luckily my fren got extra shoes in her car! so i borrowed hers.. then we went for japanese restaurant, n they served so slow! n it's like already 1.15pm but still someone food wasn't served yet! was so nervous that time! n at 1.35pm, we left n we were back to hospital ngam ngam at 2pm. Do u know why m i so nervous? Cos i have presentation at 2.30pm n i need to add in something else to my slides! haiz.. n now think back: i shouldn't have left at 11.30pm for lunch! i shud hv stay back n help up wif the jobs n prepare for my presentation. That was just a rush! n afternoon presentation, big big boss will be coming. so i was like super nervous. When back in tpn at 2.05pm, i faster add in my stuffs. n my preceptor said big big boss is coming, n asking me if i can finish it in time, then ask me faster go to meeting room! N lucily i din choose to be the 1st to present! so nervous. Mr Hatta was the 1st to present, n he was so pity till the clinical pharmacist U48 in hosp sandakan, who was also present at that time, asked him so many many questions!!!! Also present, except, big big boss n clinical pharmacist U48, includes big big boss again, n a lot a lot of preceptors! till the preceptors in OPD also attended! (they never attend clinical case presentations).. so nervous! i was presenting a case on tpn, so after present, the clinical pharmacist (CP) asked me why did i choose this case! .. i m like (so sad, why asked me such ques)... then the answer is : cos we r requested to present 2 cases on tpn! n luckily he onli focused on tpn stuffs, din ask me anything abt clinical!!! so damn nervous la. kept smiling onli. was at 1st so gan cheong, n so wanna cry liao! i think i m realli "fragile".. n luckily all the questions being asked was still ok!... n thanks for all the preceptors who helped me solved all the questions that i m wondering of!!!!! thanks!