It's all about YOUR heart!
Been thinking of that incident again n again recently when i chatted with my friends. It's really a forever hurt in both of us.. i m thoroughly ok with it and had forgotten about it. But u doesn't seem to forget about it! sometimes ignoring is just the best solution. Just to say: no fate! maybe we are not fated to be friends? sometimes things aren't so serious as what u had been thinking all along. Never had anyone will know what had happened also. And it's all on you yourself. Or if any other people knew about it, it's all about they knowing you deeply where u will share with them. Anyway. I don't c any seriousness there. For me, life is just life. You go through the ups n downs in life! Have to learn to be strong whenever you met something difficult or challenging. It's not about being mad forever and ever and ever and not going to talk with anyone who you are not liking! That's not a good characteristic a person should possess!! And it's not the best cure in life. Still the same, i don't really take into seriousness all these tiny little things.
Ok. Not important wat was it all about!
Just went KL for a course - wasting tax payer money - or should i say workshop, n get to stay back there for 2 days just to meet up some of this uni frens! The still love crapping friends. And thanks a lot for TYM for providing accomodation for me!! hehe.. thanks thanks. N thanks for bringing around! And also... i think when life goes on n on, things change, people change, environment change, and everything change. It's all about LIFE.
Lovely days are around! Thought that my hospital only got 2 pegawai u41 posts n there another new frp just reported duty to my hospital yest! good good.. routine change when someone new coming in. There are lots of new sisters reporting in my hospital, n also a new pegawai sains, a new x-ray staff, new ppk, new nurses.. and where is the new MOs?? i think we need MOs the most, n this is what pengarah thinking... muahahha. but pengarah will be leaving soon as well. scared scared scared!!~~ scared the new pengarah! hopefully he will be a nice one too~~ hehe...
Ok, Life is great at this moment!! loving loving u.. muahahha... k k ... bye everyone~~
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Stress-ness...
Think that it's been a long time since my last handling of the pharmacy by myself! i hate to be in charge! there r so many things which will directed to u.. n u have to make the decision. N i think i did a lot of bad decisions during these few days... which when i think back, i get stressed... so hope everything goes well ... i think my knowledge on drugs get bad day by day... it's almost a year in hospital papar and i think i will get rusty for being here any time longer... i shud jus go somewhere else? but if i m being transferred to some big hospital, and when i m to be in charge of a department, i wil get stressed as well! haih... this is the PnP punya life... i don like ler.. err, is it tat i prefer to b a follower??? it's not too stress la if being a follower. being a boss is like u have to handle everything from the tip to the bottom... sien.. sien.. sien.. mayb i jus read more n get myself filled wif more knowledge ba... stress... hiah haih haih haih haih haih haih haih haih... how how how how how how how how how??????? to give or not to give? to control or not to control? stresss.... pls la don bomb me wif anything else lagi. i wouldn't like to deal wif all these things anymore................. sien........
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH................
PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS......... PRAY FOR ME FOR A BETTER WEEK!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Mount Kinabalu .. mission possible
Yippi... so happy... n finally i conquered mount kinabalu.
Never ever tot that i can make it to the top.. the low peak.. n actually, i proved myself that i can actually make it!! so happy... so happy... love love love..
Yes, thanks to the sesat gang who said they wanna have this trip, have this climb. N that they said i must join too. N luckily i din give up before the climb.. haha.. woo.. the feeling of able to reach the tip of the mountain is superb... u will really love it, n enjoy it...
ok. start the journey from mesilau at 830am, reached laban rata at 5pm.
Start journey to the low peak at 3am, reached the peak at 6am.
Reaching bk laban rata at 9am.
Starting journey down from laban rata at 11.40am, reaching timpohon at 2.50pm.
That's my journey.
Time spent quite long.. but it's ok. as long as i reached the peak, n able to get bk down to timpohon, time is not a matter!!!
V proud of sesat gang! YEa. we made it! but we din hv a pic of all of us at the low peak la!! aiks aiks... anyway, a pic of us b4 leaving, a pic of us on the way to laban rata n a pic of me at the low peak! yippi yippi....
Sunday, May 03, 2009
Lots of things happened in this year.
So many sad news being heard.
During induksi, a fren's bro past away
n now, a PA who i was quite close to in my previous hosp past away due to TB
why why? why so many life has been grabbed?
Life is short..
Really...
Do enjoy life..
Hope everyone is happy wif life.
Do as much as u wish
As much as u can..
watever u wish to..
before it is too late...
God bless everyone...
So many sad news being heard.
During induksi, a fren's bro past away
n now, a PA who i was quite close to in my previous hosp past away due to TB
why why? why so many life has been grabbed?
Life is short..
Really...
Do enjoy life..
Hope everyone is happy wif life.
Do as much as u wish
As much as u can..
watever u wish to..
before it is too late...
God bless everyone...
Sunday, April 26, 2009
M currently in induksi.. n it's nice to stay in hotel though my house is just 10 minutes away. 4 Star hotel, with breakfast, tea break, lunch, tea break, dinner, supper... 6 meals a day is killing me. But i hate the food so much now. So boring with the food. Get to know some people, which is good. But need to study, which i hate it so much. And there r a lot to study, don't really know which one to study, to memorise for essay questions. So a lot....
Currently, mood is wavy... happy depress happy depress.. it's just like the "wavy line" characteristic i chose during btn Latihan Dalam Kumpulan. I hate my life.. I don't want it to be like that. Sometimes i will think, what if 1 day i commit suicide, wat will b the story then? but i shouldn't do such thing, commit suicide for wat????? non-sense, rite? so.. i should always have positive thinking... no more negative thinking. Life wil still have to go on, though there were lots of obstacles and downside throughout this year. It's April dy, and May is coming soon in just 5 days time, whereby my induksi will end at that time soon... Anyone in induksi currently? Shud share tips if got... hehe...
Another week, n i will need to go back to the boring store of hospital papar dy. Hope renovations are done n i can do more dispensing, counselling... don't wanna b stucked at the non-ventilated store anymore. Bedside dispensing is a another thing to do...
Moreover.. plans are all in my mind... hopefully i can really do everything i wish to do. Learn more when i still manage... Participate more activities though at the same time, money will be spent more....
Forget the past...
Currently, mood is wavy... happy depress happy depress.. it's just like the "wavy line" characteristic i chose during btn Latihan Dalam Kumpulan. I hate my life.. I don't want it to be like that. Sometimes i will think, what if 1 day i commit suicide, wat will b the story then? but i shouldn't do such thing, commit suicide for wat????? non-sense, rite? so.. i should always have positive thinking... no more negative thinking. Life wil still have to go on, though there were lots of obstacles and downside throughout this year. It's April dy, and May is coming soon in just 5 days time, whereby my induksi will end at that time soon... Anyone in induksi currently? Shud share tips if got... hehe...
Another week, n i will need to go back to the boring store of hospital papar dy. Hope renovations are done n i can do more dispensing, counselling... don't wanna b stucked at the non-ventilated store anymore. Bedside dispensing is a another thing to do...
Moreover.. plans are all in my mind... hopefully i can really do everything i wish to do. Learn more when i still manage... Participate more activities though at the same time, money will be spent more....
Forget the past...
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Dispensing job
Wow. It's been 5 months since my last dispensing. I really never do dispensing in Hosp Papar. Cos i don't really like to do it. Till that day, i decided to give myself a try... it's really a long time ago. n i think i have really super banyak questions to my PA. where is this? where is that? where is the sticker? where is the EBB?? cannot find la... hahaha.. n she is laughing there all the while.. lol. n till i dispense the med to an old man, i repeated repeatedly tell him this is for wat, how many tabs per day.. blablabla..
me: pakcik, ini ubat darah tinggi.. satu biji tiga kali sehari
him: oo, ada tulis sana?
me: ya. ada tulis. .. (but stil continue wif all the counsellings on med, wat is it for n bla bla)
till dispensing aspirin, n i just don't understand wat the pakcik is trying to say... n i say.. bukan, n continue wif my words, n he still can't understand, n ended up i jus say watever la ... n say... ada tulis sana, panggil anak bagi ubat ya! n my PA is laughing there again, made me laughing there oso... n b4 the pakcik leave,
he said: kenapa kamu ketawa sana...ketawa sayakah? nanti saya .... (haven't manage to finish his sentence)
me: pakcik, tiada apa-apa. bukan ketawa kamu. pakcik, ada apa-apa masalah, balik jumpa kami ya!!!...
n so i m relieved.
sorry la. really long time never settle this kind of pakcik problems. headache headache..
n i m not used to the dispensing job here. cos i need to record a lot of things b4 i dispense. time, n number of items... n i kept forgetting. n oso forgotten to tear off the "kajian masa menuggu" paper.. mayb some pt bring the paper back home dy! haha.. nvm. it's not important anyway.
Ok. Courses are coming up... hoping for.... haha,. cos no need work.. lol
30th Mac - 2 April : HIS course
10th April - 14th April : BTN in kundasang (dunno sure or not yet)
15th April - 30th April : Induksi in dunno where..
woohoo... no need work.. but my KMK... oh no!!! haven't plan for 1st meeting yet!!! die die die...
Wow. It's been 5 months since my last dispensing. I really never do dispensing in Hosp Papar. Cos i don't really like to do it. Till that day, i decided to give myself a try... it's really a long time ago. n i think i have really super banyak questions to my PA. where is this? where is that? where is the sticker? where is the EBB?? cannot find la... hahaha.. n she is laughing there all the while.. lol. n till i dispense the med to an old man, i repeated repeatedly tell him this is for wat, how many tabs per day.. blablabla..
me: pakcik, ini ubat darah tinggi.. satu biji tiga kali sehari
him: oo, ada tulis sana?
me: ya. ada tulis. .. (but stil continue wif all the counsellings on med, wat is it for n bla bla)
till dispensing aspirin, n i just don't understand wat the pakcik is trying to say... n i say.. bukan, n continue wif my words, n he still can't understand, n ended up i jus say watever la ... n say... ada tulis sana, panggil anak bagi ubat ya! n my PA is laughing there again, made me laughing there oso... n b4 the pakcik leave,
he said: kenapa kamu ketawa sana...ketawa sayakah? nanti saya .... (haven't manage to finish his sentence)
me: pakcik, tiada apa-apa. bukan ketawa kamu. pakcik, ada apa-apa masalah, balik jumpa kami ya!!!...
n so i m relieved.
sorry la. really long time never settle this kind of pakcik problems. headache headache..
n i m not used to the dispensing job here. cos i need to record a lot of things b4 i dispense. time, n number of items... n i kept forgetting. n oso forgotten to tear off the "kajian masa menuggu" paper.. mayb some pt bring the paper back home dy! haha.. nvm. it's not important anyway.
Ok. Courses are coming up... hoping for.... haha,. cos no need work.. lol
30th Mac - 2 April : HIS course
10th April - 14th April : BTN in kundasang (dunno sure or not yet)
15th April - 30th April : Induksi in dunno where..
woohoo... no need work.. but my KMK... oh no!!! haven't plan for 1st meeting yet!!! die die die...
Sunday, March 15, 2009
normal life
Life is back to the normal again.
Friends around are getting lesser n lesser.
Those who came back during cny r all left dy.
None of them r beside me.
The only one left is still she.
Colleagues back in QE r all scattered here and there.
Once one got bf, she stop hanging out wif us so often dy.
1st relationship is still always so into it.
The others are so busy as well.
Dunno wat everyone r busy with.
and i think i m free.
But actually i still got things to settle.
I need to study
I need to prepare for my KMK
I need to learn more.
N the store thing in hospital papar r confusing me.
We are doing extra job for nothing.
The warrant wasn't under our control
n why r we doing some extra headache job?
that's isnt a good thing to do ..
n i m the one who needs to do
i wanna do pharmacist job
i wanna do pharmacist job
i cannot waste my time already
shud i go search for locum?
sien.. life is so meaningless ....
mom went to italy
didi is going to study soon
bro is getting married n moving out soon
left my parents
i m working in papar
mon to thurs staying there
fri till sun staying bk home
at home oso got nth to do
the house wil b v quiet soon
shopping oso sien
watch movie oso sien
but meeting up wif frens is not sien
so that's my purpose of life now
n need to fill the borang hasil
but how to fill up?
i wan a knight prince
but he is forever hiding behind
mayb i m too choosy?
or not..??
i m not...
i wan him...
i wan get him...
huh. seems i m so desperate?
don get me wrong..
i m not..
i m thinking... thinking deeply
i need to spend my money wisely...
i need to do more charity...
shud i join tzu chi or join church activity?
church got lots of frens one wo.
tzu chi r those uncles n aunties...
n mayb got youngsters oso la..
thinking deeply
thinking deeply
tml is monday. it's working time.
yea. i think working time is much more fun.
mayb there is someone tat i can chat wif..
someone that i can c...
someone that i can 3 8 wif ...
n someone that she can share wif me ...
i m nt good in sharing..
this is always the problem..
i m just too nice... always follow ppl
this is called no own opinions.
not good either...
i need to change..
i need to change..
i still need to change..
the next moment i m hoping for is the induksi
though it might not b a good one..
but mayb i can just get to know some ppl??....
n later on, mayb a trip to singapore??
who wanna meet me there??
but havent confirm yet...
n later on wil b the gang coming over to kk...
n later on a trip to kl...
i wan go hkong..
he n she is there ...
i can go find them yumcha
can i jus plan n go?
who wanna b my kaki??
i need kaki???
he said he wants to go.. another he ask me join him.. another he said can ask him to join
but the hesss ... he says onli, the 2nd he i don realli know him, the 3rd he says only oso
n how about she?
she say yes... but time?? dunno when.. another she say wants oso.. but say mayb next yr...
everyone is full of travelling plan...
i wan go vietnam or myanmar? or thailand... can i?
who wants to go?
haihz..
mayb i m jus too lazy to find for plans.
life is just so unpredictable..
i hate this kind of life....
can i predict my future starting now?
can i plan for it???
how how how??
ok. let's c wat i have got here.
what do u think this michelin man is??? haha. he is cute!!!
Life is back to the normal again.
Friends around are getting lesser n lesser.
Those who came back during cny r all left dy.
None of them r beside me.
The only one left is still she.
Colleagues back in QE r all scattered here and there.
Once one got bf, she stop hanging out wif us so often dy.
1st relationship is still always so into it.
The others are so busy as well.
Dunno wat everyone r busy with.
and i think i m free.
But actually i still got things to settle.
I need to study
I need to prepare for my KMK
I need to learn more.
N the store thing in hospital papar r confusing me.
We are doing extra job for nothing.
The warrant wasn't under our control
n why r we doing some extra headache job?
that's isnt a good thing to do ..
n i m the one who needs to do
i wanna do pharmacist job
i wanna do pharmacist job
i cannot waste my time already
shud i go search for locum?
sien.. life is so meaningless ....
mom went to italy
didi is going to study soon
bro is getting married n moving out soon
left my parents
i m working in papar
mon to thurs staying there
fri till sun staying bk home
at home oso got nth to do
the house wil b v quiet soon
shopping oso sien
watch movie oso sien
but meeting up wif frens is not sien
so that's my purpose of life now
n need to fill the borang hasil
but how to fill up?
i wan a knight prince
but he is forever hiding behind
mayb i m too choosy?
or not..??
i m not...
i wan him...
i wan get him...
huh. seems i m so desperate?
don get me wrong..
i m not..
i m thinking... thinking deeply
i need to spend my money wisely...
i need to do more charity...
shud i join tzu chi or join church activity?
church got lots of frens one wo.
tzu chi r those uncles n aunties...
n mayb got youngsters oso la..
thinking deeply
thinking deeply
tml is monday. it's working time.
yea. i think working time is much more fun.
mayb there is someone tat i can chat wif..
someone that i can c...
someone that i can 3 8 wif ...
n someone that she can share wif me ...
i m nt good in sharing..
this is always the problem..
i m just too nice... always follow ppl
this is called no own opinions.
not good either...
i need to change..
i need to change..
i still need to change..
the next moment i m hoping for is the induksi
though it might not b a good one..
but mayb i can just get to know some ppl??....
n later on, mayb a trip to singapore??
who wanna meet me there??
but havent confirm yet...
n later on wil b the gang coming over to kk...
n later on a trip to kl...
i wan go hkong..
he n she is there ...
i can go find them yumcha
can i jus plan n go?
who wanna b my kaki??
i need kaki???
he said he wants to go.. another he ask me join him.. another he said can ask him to join
but the hesss ... he says onli, the 2nd he i don realli know him, the 3rd he says only oso
n how about she?
she say yes... but time?? dunno when.. another she say wants oso.. but say mayb next yr...
everyone is full of travelling plan...
i wan go vietnam or myanmar? or thailand... can i?
who wants to go?
haihz..
mayb i m jus too lazy to find for plans.
life is just so unpredictable..
i hate this kind of life....
can i predict my future starting now?
can i plan for it???
how how how??
ok. let's c wat i have got here.
what do u think this michelin man is??? haha. he is cute!!!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Sunday, February 01, 2009
Friday, January 02, 2009
Happy new year everyone.. happy 2009...
How did i spent my new year eve?
Yea. I went to kuala penyu with my frens. Departed at ard 4.30 on 31st Dec from papar, then going to beaufort (ard an hour away) to fetch my fren, wei wei. And later continue our journey to kp, which is around 45 mins from beaufort.. arrived at kp ard 6 sth. Huh, sure ppl think we r v weird, we go all the way to the ulu place for countdown but not celebrating in kk, in the city. Everyone went kk but not us~ Actually this is also a different type of experience .. 3 other frens (joshua, foon & ngu) join us in kp, starting journey at ard 5.30 from kk.. and only reach kp after 3 1/2 hrs journey.. The reason of departing late is to wait for the mr joshua to finish work at 5pm where others took time off to get back home so tat can arrive in kp earlier.. cos the road to kp is realli damn DARK... no light at all. but luckily i arrived there early .. Bbq there at ChitYee's house (my prp fren who kena posted in kp) and chit chatting.. time passes super fast... and we did pay a visit to hospital kp due to Dr Tan having on call... so we followed him to the hospital~ The hospital is v nice. Got astro there in casualty.. some more got STAR movie.. "my house oso don hv"... wow. n the hospital is so spacious and nice since it's a new hospital. But there r really a lot of SHITS ... the birds' shits everywhere... but the whole hospital is really very quiet at nite ... later back home to continue bbq and v fast it's 10.40pm ... n we all r rushing to shower. limiting everyone for a maximum of 10 mins .... hahaha. so tat we r on time for countdown. Play cards while waiting for 12am.. and u can't realli believe that ppl in kp realli celebrate countdown. there r fireworks there. can onli hear the sound.. n got the liondance sound oso. but dunno where is it from~~ ~~ slept quite early after countdown as we r all the old man, old woman, used to sleep early n wake up early for work~ !!! haha.
Oh. Actually why we chose to be there in kp? actually there is a wedding party the next day, that is 1st Jan 2009, of a colleague back in QEH. Florina is a kadazan but her wedding is somekind of mixture of every races. No sumazau dance which i was hoping for. And there is like some "shen tai".. --> chinese style.. n got YUM SENG --> chinese style... weird one is suap-menyuap cake ... the bride's wedding dress is a bit lose for her~ n her husband is really quite good looking. a bit like chinese but more like sino kadazan ... wow. wish them happy ever after~ A lot of the frps travelled all the way from kk to kp to attend their wedding party in the kampung house... a lot a lot of ppl r there. cos small kampung, one ppl marry, then everyone in the kampung r like invited~ hehe.
Love this song lately though is not a new song..
陶喆的《爱很简单》
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......
i love you
无法不爱你baby
说你也爱我
永远不愿意baby
失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
我一直在这里baby
一直在爱你
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do
How did i spent my new year eve?
Yea. I went to kuala penyu with my frens. Departed at ard 4.30 on 31st Dec from papar, then going to beaufort (ard an hour away) to fetch my fren, wei wei. And later continue our journey to kp, which is around 45 mins from beaufort.. arrived at kp ard 6 sth. Huh, sure ppl think we r v weird, we go all the way to the ulu place for countdown but not celebrating in kk, in the city. Everyone went kk but not us~ Actually this is also a different type of experience .. 3 other frens (joshua, foon & ngu) join us in kp, starting journey at ard 5.30 from kk.. and only reach kp after 3 1/2 hrs journey.. The reason of departing late is to wait for the mr joshua to finish work at 5pm where others took time off to get back home so tat can arrive in kp earlier.. cos the road to kp is realli damn DARK... no light at all. but luckily i arrived there early .. Bbq there at ChitYee's house (my prp fren who kena posted in kp) and chit chatting.. time passes super fast... and we did pay a visit to hospital kp due to Dr Tan having on call... so we followed him to the hospital~ The hospital is v nice. Got astro there in casualty.. some more got STAR movie.. "my house oso don hv"... wow. n the hospital is so spacious and nice since it's a new hospital. But there r really a lot of SHITS ... the birds' shits everywhere... but the whole hospital is really very quiet at nite ... later back home to continue bbq and v fast it's 10.40pm ... n we all r rushing to shower. limiting everyone for a maximum of 10 mins .... hahaha. so tat we r on time for countdown. Play cards while waiting for 12am.. and u can't realli believe that ppl in kp realli celebrate countdown. there r fireworks there. can onli hear the sound.. n got the liondance sound oso. but dunno where is it from~~ ~~ slept quite early after countdown as we r all the old man, old woman, used to sleep early n wake up early for work~ !!! haha.
Oh. Actually why we chose to be there in kp? actually there is a wedding party the next day, that is 1st Jan 2009, of a colleague back in QEH. Florina is a kadazan but her wedding is somekind of mixture of every races. No sumazau dance which i was hoping for. And there is like some "shen tai".. --> chinese style.. n got YUM SENG --> chinese style... weird one is suap-menyuap cake ... the bride's wedding dress is a bit lose for her~ n her husband is really quite good looking. a bit like chinese but more like sino kadazan ... wow. wish them happy ever after~ A lot of the frps travelled all the way from kk to kp to attend their wedding party in the kampung house... a lot a lot of ppl r there. cos small kampung, one ppl marry, then everyone in the kampung r like invited~ hehe.
Love this song lately though is not a new song..
陶喆的《爱很简单》
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......
i love you
无法不爱你baby
说你也爱我
永远不愿意baby
失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
我一直在这里baby
一直在爱你
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do
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