normal life

Life is back to the normal again.
Friends around are getting lesser n lesser.
Those who came back during cny r all left dy.
None of them r beside me.
The only one left is still she.

Colleagues back in QE r all scattered here and there.
Once one got bf, she stop hanging out wif us so often dy.
1st relationship is still always so into it.
The others are so busy as well.
Dunno wat everyone r busy with.
and i think i m free.
But actually i still got things to settle.
I need to study
I need to prepare for my KMK
I need to learn more.
N the store thing in hospital papar r confusing me.
We are doing extra job for nothing.
The warrant wasn't under our control
n why r we doing some extra headache job?
that's isnt a good thing to do ..
n i m the one who needs to do
i wanna do pharmacist job
i wanna do pharmacist job
i cannot waste my time already
shud i go search for locum?
sien.. life is so meaningless ....

mom went to italy
didi is going to study soon
bro is getting married n moving out soon
left my parents
i m working in papar
mon to thurs staying there
fri till sun staying bk home
at home oso got nth to do
the house wil b v quiet soon
shopping oso sien
watch movie oso sien
but meeting up wif frens is not sien
so that's my purpose of life now
n need to fill the borang hasil
but how to fill up?
i wan a knight prince
but he is forever hiding behind
mayb i m too choosy?
or not..??
i m not...
i wan him...
i wan get him...
huh. seems i m so desperate?
don get me wrong..
i m not..
i m thinking... thinking deeply
i need to spend my money wisely...
i need to do more charity...
shud i join tzu chi or join church activity?
church got lots of frens one wo.
tzu chi r those uncles n aunties...
n mayb got youngsters oso la..
thinking deeply
thinking deeply
tml is monday. it's working time.
yea. i think working time is much more fun.
mayb there is someone tat i can chat wif..
someone that i can c...
someone that i can 3 8 wif ...
n someone that she can share wif me ...
i m nt good in sharing..
this is always the problem..
i m just too nice... always follow ppl
this is called no own opinions.
not good either...
i need to change..
i need to change..
i still need to change..

the next moment i m hoping for is the induksi
though it might not b a good one..
but mayb i can just get to know some ppl??....
n later on, mayb a trip to singapore??
who wanna meet me there??
but havent confirm yet...
n later on wil b the gang coming over to kk...
n later on a trip to kl...
i wan go hkong..
he n she is there ...
i can go find them yumcha
can i jus plan n go?
who wanna b my kaki??
i need kaki???
he said he wants to go.. another he ask me join him.. another he said can ask him to join
but the hesss ... he says onli, the 2nd he i don realli know him, the 3rd he says only oso
n how about she?
she say yes... but time?? dunno when.. another she say wants oso.. but say mayb next yr...
everyone is full of travelling plan...
i wan go vietnam or myanmar? or thailand... can i?
who wants to go?
haihz..
mayb i m jus too lazy to find for plans.

life is just so unpredictable..
i hate this kind of life....
can i predict my future starting now?
can i plan for it???
how how how??

ok. let's c wat i have got here.
what do u think this michelin man is??? haha. he is cute!!!