Suddenly syt said she read bk my previous x'mas post abt our trip to budapest... n so i just go n find n read back. Really remind me a lot of things.. recall a lot of memories. And after read that post, i start to read bk all my previous posts.. n i feel that a lot of posts shouldnt b publicized here one. lol. that's why this should b a private diary for me. and not a diary for syt la.... lol.... funny syt made me laughing giler only...

Wat m i up to now? erm, still the normal me. working n sleeping n watching series. nth much happening nowadays... oh ya, new Dr came in hosp papar since 16th Dec.. n when he is here, another Dr starts on leave. so.. still left 3 Drs and pity pengarah still hv to go n review patients. That day was asking pengarah if both of us (the pharmacists) can on leave during cny together. n he said, ok ar if everything is fine. But then after that he is like quite scared oso. do he ? but nvm la. both of us wont be taking leave together ... cos my colleague said she got nothing to do if take leave during cny week. So she choose to take leaves b4 cny, n i will b taking on the cny week. n pengarah some more said: our hospital can close down liao la. dr goh on leave, dr teoh on leave, i on leave... left 2 Drs onli... i was there laughing... wat a lol....

So regret of wasting my whole night at a stupid dinner! tot what the dinner is all abt, chinese pengarah is the AJK for some local artists award thingy n was invited to attend the dinner. And u know, is so noisy there.... the audio system is so lousy. i hate myself now for accepting the offer to attend the dinner. anyway, dinner half way n i left because i m so boring... Dr Aini was sitting beside me, but i got no topic to chat wif her. the whole table of hospital staffs, so interested on this thing but i got no idea n don't really know how to appreciate or enjoy the event... wanna leave n they say it's still early or even it's going to finish soon. but it's jus half way thru the award giving... cannot stand dy. after i left, i was so so so relieved. never felt so relieved b4... ok. promise not to accept any kind of invitation for any weird dinner anymore~

The feeling is all abt again....... haih.

Today went for ballroom dancing competition... go n watch n not participating.. wow, i just love the ballroom dance. if got chance, might get myself into this. But when i c those young ppl dancing, i can feel myself being old to start learning.... cha cha.. quick steps, bla bla bla... ballroom dance is still better than those malays/locals award giving events....... haih....

my blog's name: janice's dreamy mind.. i really thinks that i dream a lot.. STOP dreaming n get into sleep... dreaming awakenly jus kills me the next day. My eyes are so bengkak now n i m so sleepy now. Slept ard 12 or 2 ? nt so sure what time did i really get into sleep... n wake up ard 4 sth! huh.. i m so tired now~ hopefully no more thinking much today~ get into sleep~

Scary things happened sometimes~

I m not so sure what my feeling is all about now ...

Yesterday my fren told me her fren is getting married next week n she is going to b the zi mui.... i m so happy to hear tat.. n i m waiting for my turn to become zi mui... become zi mui 1st, not to say abt getting married~ i don think i wil ever get married so soon~ luckily my fren's fren is the same age as my elder bro one... nt my age one. so i m still ok wif it~ n my bro is oso going to get married soon. Oh. everyone oso getting married n i might somehow feel some pressure towards me~ pressure by myself ~ no one ever gif me any pressure on getting a bf or wat... but i can feel that i m giving myself pressure~ cos i m nt young anymore~

oo. talking abt zi mui, i m waiting for being zi mui next year june... so happy... my fren is getting married~ wat wil be it like for being a zi mui?? haha. so curious to know. n hv to wear nice nice lo... keep fit 1st~ lazy ass still sitting in the office typing blog... now is lunch break but i m here in the office ... din go out to hunt for food... cos nth to eat outside~ sien on the food sold outside~ so eating bread~ it's just once in a while~

i wan go travel~ this is wat i m always saying abt ~ but i never plan for any trips.... who wants to go wif me oh? aiyoyo.. but when is my induksi ler? actually i should be in the induksi which has just finished, but pengarah don let me go~ sob sob... the so called they hatred one Dr is there ba~ aiyo. missed the show~ the ngu families~ lol....

STOP dreaming... wake up wake up~

oh yea. yest went medical camp~ love it~ cos it was so relaxing n somehow get to know who r the Drs... haha. cos normally i always mixed up this is that, that is this~ lol.. they r specialist but i dunno them.. so sorry to those specialist ~ haha.. but my hosp now got no specialist oso~ hehe...

ok. stop here.. i m waiting for next yr august to come~ wei, u all, don ffk~~

Reported duty in Hospital Papar for 1/2 a month dy. Hospital Papar, a district hospital which is about 1 hour away from my house, is considered the nearest district hospital to Kota Kinabalu. Consider lucky to get this hospital as everyone of my batch who r throw away .. are really being thrown far away. Got another one got hospital kota belud, which is around 1 hour away from KK as well. The locals are all being thrown out.. none of the locals being retained in anywhere in KK, not in hosp QE, not in hosp Likas, not in hosp Bukit Padang, not in PBFN, and not in enforcement as well. For ur information, these 5 sites are all located in Kota Kinabalu... so.. none of the locals being retained in KK. Keningau got 2 (2 hrs ++ away), Tenom got 2 (3hrs ++ away), Kota Marudu got 1 (2 hrs away), Beaufort got 1 (2 hrs away), Kuala Penyu got 1 (2 hrs away), Papar got 1, Kota Belud got 1. . . . Those orang tawau also all kena buang out of tawau....

A store pharmacist which i will only need to sign this sign that.. and nothing else to do. Actually i was being asked to go for induksi this coming november, but who know my boss doesnt let me go. He said cannot both pharmacist also go for induksi at the same time, n who will in charge of the pharmacy? .. so no choice n i cannot attend this coming induksi with my fellow friends.

Ok. Attended meeting once with all the ketua units and pengarah and the meeting was kinda relaxing as everyone is like discussing and making fun of it, n not the so serious meeting. Kinda like this type of situation but hopefully i m not gonna attend so many meetings in the future... being a big fish in a small hospital, u can really learn a lot, but more on management rather than on pharmaceutical care. . .

Guess that's all to share with. Update again sometimes later~ life is boring ~ ~ ~

在inpatient的日子果然是不好过。我不喜欢他们有的系统， 没有坚定的立场！那么所谓的C/S到底是为了什么呢？定的所有的规则是为了什么呢？所有人都没什么沟通。。 。他们说给，你又不想给。。实在是好难做人啊！

在 outpatient 的日子却是忙到不行。。新的PRP们也实在太可爱了！ＩＭＵＢＰＨＡＲＭ的可爱，ＬＯＣＡＬＵＮＩ的是成熟。全部都是ＬＯＣＡＬ人。。　谈啊谈啊。。　不是跟我同中学，就是更我同大学，有个甚至是跟我同小学的！太奥妙了！她说是中华小学的，第二句话就是：哦，跳舞的，每次老师都放你在前面的，跳主角的。。。哦，她太记得了吧！哈哈。。

ＱＵＥＥＮ的日子得结束了。。得开始新的医院的生活了！有点期待的，也有点懒的去报到。ＴＡＷＡＵ的朋友们也都没被留下在那儿的医院。也被派到瞒远的地方呢！

好想去ＫＬ旅行，见见朋友。要不就去外国玩玩吧！！！

And yes, i m done with all my attachments in all the departments! considered finished my prp life of a year! n starting next month, i m the frp already! but i still think that i don;t realli have much knowledge in all the medications! can i realli cope with it when i m a frp already?

I m scared with the posting that i will get in the coming week. Not so sure where will i be posted to .. maybe districts or maybe retain or mayb in KK (Kota Kinabalu) area. Sandakan prps are damn lucky.. 3 guys.. a guy got posted to Hosp BP in Kota Kinabalu (it's his 1st choice) and b4 this everyone has been telling us that hosp BP doesn't need any extra pharmacists anymore. N now they are accepting him. Lucky him, isn't it? The other 2 guys got retained in HDOK. How lucky r them?!

Wish for the best! Thinking a lot of times where shud i go? .. .. .. .. .. ..

Dreams in these few days are quite interesting! haha.. (not related)

Needa settle a lot of things by then....

Wishing to meet the new prps coming in!!! another week more..

n i m on call for tdm this week.. n in another 2 weeks time, it's my turn again... Why is it me again as the 1st caller?

Fluctuating mood now....

Dunno what m i thinking....

Less and less frens around....

Boring ....

Speechless

It has been a while since my last update! n was browsing through some photos of mine taken these few months. Something that i wanna show here!

Picture showing the largest flower in the world, or better known as a genus of parasitic flowering plants, according to wikipedia. Yea. Went to kundasang and to Hot Spring Poring, and on the way back, saw a banner on the rafflesia and thus we stopped by for a visit! 1st time visit for this flower and each of us need to pay for RM10 per person! that's so expensive! n thus request for just RM5 per person n the owner agrees. The flower is grown somewhere at some villagers' area, n thus they can just open for visit of publics! but it's 1st time visit n thus we just go for it! n the flower isn't smelly at all.... and i thought it was super huge, but not as what i thought too!~

Finally the prps in my hospital who are retained in Sabah, know where they will be posted to as frp! keningau, tenom, beaufort, kuala penyu, kinabatangan, QEH and hosp likas... the lucky ones got retain in KK.. n mostly got posted to districts.. can't imagine where will i be posted to when it's my turn to become frp! three more weeks to go!~

Well, just hope everything gets fine ........ wish for the best!

Why is life so like that? i hate the life nowadays. no opd again... i hate that so much! becos of the ppl there! and u r the boss, can't u just be polite a bit? haiyoyo.

haih. 24 hours service gotta start in our hospital, starting next month. Heard that other hospital wanna stop this service already but we just wanna to begin it! that's like so scary! work during midnight with another PA onli.. 2 ppl onli at that scary and quiet place! how to realli get through that 6 hours ... with opened counter!

Life is boring! wei, syt.... let's go kuching!!! n when u coming over?
aiz... say say say.. faster come over here n let's go for mt kinabalu ba!
or we shud jus go kuching to visit our frens over there 1st?

Ok. Currently in store n it's boring! finally finished my 2nd CPE... so happy ba! but got journal presentation and research project to do some more! so many things.. unfinished job!

19 June 2008
Being alone as a prp in enforcement this whole week. Waiting for Mr PRP to come next week. Left 2 weeks in enforcement, n i think i will get used to this kind of office work if i m to be kept for longer time! 2 months in enforcement!!! n i did a lot of things..

Been to do a lot of checkings in lesen A, B, permit NaOH, clinics... really a lot... n so far, the furthest place i went is to Tuaran. Not to say very far also ... around 1/2 hour to reach Tuaran Town, but to get to the Lembaga Getah place for permit NaOH checking, it takes around 20 minutes to get into the end of the small n wavy road! n 20 minutes to come out from there also. 7 clinics checking plus 2 NaOH permit checking, just spent one whole morning!

Alone in enforcement for a week n u can know that the life sucks! first day, read newspaper whole day, 2nd day at least stil got things to do, 3rd day, went to court, n finally i get to go to court, so happy, but din get to see case on pharmacy pula, cos PNG, 4th day, which is today, do CPF3 lo... kira costing of rampasan... tml... got party to farewell a penolong pengarah.. n i get to eat free food again... i have been eating a lot of free food during attachment in enforcement oh!!! good good...

That's all 1st

It's the season for drug talks and CME by medical association.
Attended all that we are invited if possible. Cos got free food...
Yesterday attended the Cervarix talk, n we got a clock/timer as the door gift! that's good.
N now i m really collecting more and more pen.
Finished my opd finally. Going in IPP next week lo....
Hopefully everything will turn out nice as well....

Went island last weekend. Was quite nice. Banana boat, i want to play again!!!

It's april.. two more months and it's june already! Waiting for them to be back. It's like very fast.. one year passes very fast! Waiting for my sista to be back too... waiting for ah yuen to be back too in dec...

Life has been simple. common. nothing interesting. dull. boring.
The life makes me boring oso.
I am a boring person. . . i am not talkative unless i m v close with someone...
I can't join in the crowd easily.
That's boring... ... ...
Miss the old gang of people. . .
Shoud or when shoud i go visit kl? anticipating though
but no plan...
haiz..
preparing CPE ...
currently in klinik luyang...
dispensing like a robot....
PCM, piriton, benadryl, LMS...
everyday repeat saying the same things...
that's boring... opd in klinik really dull....

Next week will be my last week in TPN. Life in TPN has been bored .. this week, there is another prp working in tpn, so she wants to do EVERYTHING. So, i got nothing to do. As we need to reach target for this station, which my targets have all be reached, so i let her do everything, from IV Ad, to TPN compounding to Countercheck. I really can't stand the boredom if i got nothing to do! What can i do is open my laptop and start typing reports or doing presentations. Hopefully next week still have chance to do some compounding! cos will be my last time to do compounding dy! Compounding is quite nice to do actually~ ~ ! Actually, i still got something to do la in TPN, go monitor patients and suggest regimen for patients. That's to be done only during noon time. Other than that, i really got nothing to do!

After TPN, i will be going back to OPD again.. 2 more months there to finish my opd station! Later on will be going to IPP dy for 1 month... 1st week in opd i will be taking leaves for cny, taking leaves from 5th till13th feb!! long holidays! yea....

Update

Yesterday was a terrible day for me! 11.30am was my lunch break, but life in tpn isn't like that. But my colleague has been looking for me to go for lunch together. Their appearance in tpn is just urging me to leave on that time! But, i havent finish my job yet! Counterchecking haven't done yet, but PA haven't prepare the paperwork, so i can't do the countercheck yet too! n there r new cases yesterday, n my preceptor had to do all the clerking. But always, when i do the clerking, i think she still prefer herself to do the clerking case. So.. i left without finishing what i suppose to do. But .. there is a mix emotion at that time, to leave or not, to go out eat or not! but at last i left! On the way walking to the car park, my high heels got broken due to my colleague stepping at my back shoe! that time, it's jus "oh sh*t!" then how m i suppose to continue walking here n there later? huh. but luckily my fren got extra shoes in her car! so i borrowed hers.. then we went for japanese restaurant, n they served so slow! n it's like already 1.15pm but still someone food wasn't served yet! was so nervous that time! n at 1.35pm, we left n we were back to hospital ngam ngam at 2pm. Do u know why m i so nervous? Cos i have presentation at 2.30pm n i need to add in something else to my slides! haiz.. n now think back: i shouldn't have left at 11.30pm for lunch! i shud hv stay back n help up wif the jobs n prepare for my presentation. That was just a rush! n afternoon presentation, big big boss will be coming. so i was like super nervous. When back in tpn at 2.05pm, i faster add in my stuffs. n my preceptor said big big boss is coming, n asking me if i can finish it in time, then ask me faster go to meeting room! N lucily i din choose to be the 1st to present! so nervous. Mr Hatta was the 1st to present, n he was so pity till the clinical pharmacist U48 in hosp sandakan, who was also present at that time, asked him so many many questions!!!! Also present, except, big big boss n clinical pharmacist U48, includes big big boss again, n a lot a lot of preceptors! till the preceptors in OPD also attended! (they never attend clinical case presentations).. so nervous! i was presenting a case on tpn, so after present, the clinical pharmacist (CP) asked me why did i choose this case! .. i m like (so sad, why asked me such ques)... then the answer is : cos we r requested to present 2 cases on tpn! n luckily he onli focused on tpn stuffs, din ask me anything abt clinical!!! so damn nervous la. kept smiling onli. was at 1st so gan cheong, n so wanna cry liao! i think i m realli "fragile".. n luckily all the questions being asked was still ok!... n thanks for all the preceptors who helped me solved all the questions that i m wondering of!!!!! thanks!

How can MOW case notes be so messy??! hate it!
Where r all the results n why are everything not in order??!!
Wasted so much time to clerk a patient's case! n ended up dunno clerking what case!
What are MOW's HO doing there?
Haiz...

FISH LEONG

Went Fish leong's promotion tour (mini concert) yesterday night..
Not really full house!
1st concert i attended since i m back in malaysia! 1st in kk too~
saw a familiar ppl.. the one wif white shirt in the pic. is it chua jye ying? dunno recognised correctly or not. din hv chance to say hi to her! any idea where is she now??