Tuesday, November 09, 2010

New store

I have been working here in hospital papar for 2 years plus 24 days...

I am still here. Not able to transfer out to other hospitals..

This is not my plan...

Anyway, i learnt a lot in these 2 years.. Not about pharmacy, which i am getting worse at it, but about construction, management, and things like that.

Is that good or bad? Er, can be meant that i don't even need a bachelor in construction or what, but i get to learn the details about it. The failure and wrongs that i done will not be repeated once i am going to handle big projects on constructions again.. Hehe.. As if i m so gonna go into construction field..

Ok.. These 2 years, the store i am in charge of, get flooded, and repeatedly i wrote letters to the boss and complain about the importance of having good store. And repeatedly, it was being told that the warrant has been approved and we will get a new store soon. And later on repeatedly being told that the warrant has been held back for other purposes. And in the end, we got the money!! hehe.. and there my construction plans are all in use. I planned for how the roof should be constructed, i planned for the door to be relocated, i planned for proper drainage covers, i planned for proper rooms and i planned for proper new racks. I also planned for good air-conditioning, good wiring, and nice windows, grills, curtains. But the down part is i never stated what type of tiles i need for my store. And there, they gave me the lousiest tile ever, the cheapest ever! Ok, never mind, maybe in just to a maximum of another year time, i won't be here anymore. So i won't get to see the tiles changing colours, or getting "brighter".. hahaha...

Ok. What else did i do in this hospital? Ok. I started MTAC DM, which is so passively being done. And i am always saying that i should just get a help from a Dr but i never do that.. Passively.. As i don't really know what should i do with my patients. I don't even easily get them to come back to see me every month. They are all so reluctantly to be back....

What else what else? Don't think there's a lot. The most proudly done thing is my store renovation! Give a big clap to me. A lot of things happened during the works, with the construction taukeh and the supervisor. But thankfully, the contractor is a good one, which is so easily demanded.. And he did the things well, though maybe the workmanship isn't that up to standard. But at least the things he used are considered quality ones according to himself! Thank god!

Still, wishing to get back to kk.. at least i can go for aerobic classes? if i am so hardworking, or at least i can get my iphone working with 3G... because i can't even connect to 3G in papar!!! aiks aiks aiks... Faster get me back no matter which department i will be going, as i might need to do clinical, which i myself aren't so sure if i can handle clinical well or not...

Anyway, pray for the good things, and best wishes to myself!! Oh yea, someone is getting married next year during my birthday!! haha. and i will be the ji mui definitely. congrates mate!!

Friday, November 05, 2010

So sad so sad..

What a day for me!
I am home alone...
And i start to feel so lonely...
I just wanna cry out loud to release all the tensions...
I am always home alone anyway... Mother went over to bro's hse but i don't wanna join..
I am so anti-social to go n meet anymore new friends.. i don't need them...
This is the first time of being home alone that i am so so so so sad of...
Home alone is always a norm in my life actually... Life is ok without anyone...

A message from last week during the church session:
Pastor asked: Who thinks that he/she doesnt have someone that knows him/her well?

The first thought for me is definitely a --> I don't have one!
But, 2nd thought is --> i have one.

So which is the real thought?

There's something imprinted in my mind! i m so sad for that..

Again, still sad for a lot of things..

I think i m in the down part of my life again... everything seems so unwell, and not smooth..

Why whatever i want to get doesn't come into my hand? Why there's always no chance for me?

what can i do now? i hate everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aiks.......

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Transfer?

Waiting for my transfer but it's still in the waiting list.
Now i know how do the people waiting for their turns to get transfer feels like.
Why can't i get mine but they are just retaining those fresh frp in big hospital.
Why can't they just send those people to districts while let us all back to big hospital?
Working in small hospital is a bit too boring dy. The people there also limited, gossips are limited,
stories are limited, drugs are limited, learning are limited, talks are limited, what also limited.
So how can they be so not fair!
issshhhh...
They should be fair to everyone!! aiks...
Why do people in other states get transfer so easily? but not us in sabah??!!
Aaiiikkkssss....

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

最近

最近生活开始越来越乏味了
重复地做回同样的东西。
好闷啊。
但也只求赚些钱吧。。
还有什么是可以做的呢?
没有别人的督促,没有什么压力,觉得想做就做,不想做就不做。。这也太有性格了吧!

真想要有一个快乐的旅程。但没有同伴啊!

得去游一游泳了。。。

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

气死我了

气死我了。。烦死我了

最近真的是太多的东西气死我了。。

难道人的命运到一个时候总会跌到底潮吗?

一个一个事情接踵而来。。 为何我希望那件事情可以交代给xxx,可是到头来还是自己得啃?

当正在面临很多的烦恼时,一些无聊的人却惹来一大堆的事情啊。。

真想一切都不用再我的掌权之下,顺人家意就好了。。

还一整天为了一个无聊没有根据的事情在烦。。

别以为你是谁啦。。。

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

想想想想

最近头脑里实在是太多的烦恼了。。

有钱烦,没钱烦
有工烦,没工烦

真是不知如何是好。。

Sunday, April 11, 2010

A getaway~

Again, it has been a long time. Things have been going on smoothly, with the care and love of the lovessss onesss... But still facing some challenges in the working place, with all the construction work and designer work being carried out by me. Ehem, am i an architecture aka constructor? Anyway, just do what i can, but if more than that which i can't deal of, i will just let it to be.

Had a short trip to kl recently. Went to sunway lagoon, and i tried out the FIREFOX! wow, thought it will be super scary, but .... ok ok la. Only the moment that's scary is when u will let go of yourself and start sliding towards the end! But never try out the G-FORCE.

And i also finally dare to play FLYING COASTER, and also CORK SCREW, which before this i never play before. It's so fun and relax sitting on the first row for the cork screw! muahahha.. 25 years already, the first time to try out these 2 things.

Yea yea. Doing somethings that i don't dare to do is really fascinating. And this year, i am going for a MERCY trip which i was hoping for, for few years already! Hope everything will be interesting too~ yipppi....