Tuesday, November 09, 2010

New store

I have been working here in hospital papar for 2 years plus 24 days...

I am still here. Not able to transfer out to other hospitals..

This is not my plan...

Anyway, i learnt a lot in these 2 years.. Not about pharmacy, which i am getting worse at it, but about construction, management, and things like that.

Is that good or bad? Er, can be meant that i don't even need a bachelor in construction or what, but i get to learn the details about it. The failure and wrongs that i done will not be repeated once i am going to handle big projects on constructions again.. Hehe.. As if i m so gonna go into construction field..

Ok.. These 2 years, the store i am in charge of, get flooded, and repeatedly i wrote letters to the boss and complain about the importance of having good store. And repeatedly, it was being told that the warrant has been approved and we will get a new store soon. And later on repeatedly being told that the warrant has been held back for other purposes. And in the end, we got the money!! hehe.. and there my construction plans are all in use. I planned for how the roof should be constructed, i planned for the door to be relocated, i planned for proper drainage covers, i planned for proper rooms and i planned for proper new racks. I also planned for good air-conditioning, good wiring, and nice windows, grills, curtains. But the down part is i never stated what type of tiles i need for my store. And there, they gave me the lousiest tile ever, the cheapest ever! Ok, never mind, maybe in just to a maximum of another year time, i won't be here anymore. So i won't get to see the tiles changing colours, or getting "brighter".. hahaha...

Ok. What else did i do in this hospital? Ok. I started MTAC DM, which is so passively being done. And i am always saying that i should just get a help from a Dr but i never do that.. Passively.. As i don't really know what should i do with my patients. I don't even easily get them to come back to see me every month. They are all so reluctantly to be back....

What else what else? Don't think there's a lot. The most proudly done thing is my store renovation! Give a big clap to me. A lot of things happened during the works, with the construction taukeh and the supervisor. But thankfully, the contractor is a good one, which is so easily demanded.. And he did the things well, though maybe the workmanship isn't that up to standard. But at least the things he used are considered quality ones according to himself! Thank god!

Still, wishing to get back to kk.. at least i can go for aerobic classes? if i am so hardworking, or at least i can get my iphone working with 3G... because i can't even connect to 3G in papar!!! aiks aiks aiks... Faster get me back no matter which department i will be going, as i might need to do clinical, which i myself aren't so sure if i can handle clinical well or not...

Anyway, pray for the good things, and best wishes to myself!! Oh yea, someone is getting married next year during my birthday!! haha. and i will be the ji mui definitely. congrates mate!!

Friday, November 05, 2010

So sad so sad..

What a day for me!
I am home alone...
And i start to feel so lonely...
I just wanna cry out loud to release all the tensions...
I am always home alone anyway... Mother went over to bro's hse but i don't wanna join..
I am so anti-social to go n meet anymore new friends.. i don't need them...
This is the first time of being home alone that i am so so so so sad of...
Home alone is always a norm in my life actually... Life is ok without anyone...

A message from last week during the church session:
Pastor asked: Who thinks that he/she doesnt have someone that knows him/her well?

The first thought for me is definitely a --> I don't have one!
But, 2nd thought is --> i have one.

So which is the real thought?

There's something imprinted in my mind! i m so sad for that..

Again, still sad for a lot of things..

I think i m in the down part of my life again... everything seems so unwell, and not smooth..

Why whatever i want to get doesn't come into my hand? Why there's always no chance for me?

what can i do now? i hate everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aiks.......

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Transfer?

Waiting for my transfer but it's still in the waiting list.
Now i know how do the people waiting for their turns to get transfer feels like.
Why can't i get mine but they are just retaining those fresh frp in big hospital.
Why can't they just send those people to districts while let us all back to big hospital?
Working in small hospital is a bit too boring dy. The people there also limited, gossips are limited,
stories are limited, drugs are limited, learning are limited, talks are limited, what also limited.
So how can they be so not fair!
issshhhh...
They should be fair to everyone!! aiks...
Why do people in other states get transfer so easily? but not us in sabah??!!
Aaiiikkkssss....