my blog's name: janice's dreamy mind.. i really thinks that i dream a lot.. STOP dreaming n get into sleep... dreaming awakenly jus kills me the next day. My eyes are so bengkak now n i m so sleepy now. Slept ard 12 or 2 ? nt so sure what time did i really get into sleep... n wake up ard 4 sth! huh.. i m so tired now~ hopefully no more thinking much today~ get into sleep~

Scary things happened sometimes~

I m not so sure what my feeling is all about now ...

Yesterday my fren told me her fren is getting married next week n she is going to b the zi mui.... i m so happy to hear tat.. n i m waiting for my turn to become zi mui... become zi mui 1st, not to say abt getting married~ i don think i wil ever get married so soon~ luckily my fren's fren is the same age as my elder bro one... nt my age one. so i m still ok wif it~ n my bro is oso going to get married soon. Oh. everyone oso getting married n i might somehow feel some pressure towards me~ pressure by myself ~ no one ever gif me any pressure on getting a bf or wat... but i can feel that i m giving myself pressure~ cos i m nt young anymore~

oo. talking abt zi mui, i m waiting for being zi mui next year june... so happy... my fren is getting married~ wat wil be it like for being a zi mui?? haha. so curious to know. n hv to wear nice nice lo... keep fit 1st~ lazy ass still sitting in the office typing blog... now is lunch break but i m here in the office ... din go out to hunt for food... cos nth to eat outside~ sien on the food sold outside~ so eating bread~ it's just once in a while~

i wan go travel~ this is wat i m always saying abt ~ but i never plan for any trips.... who wants to go wif me oh? aiyoyo.. but when is my induksi ler? actually i should be in the induksi which has just finished, but pengarah don let me go~ sob sob... the so called they hatred one Dr is there ba~ aiyo. missed the show~ the ngu families~ lol....

STOP dreaming... wake up wake up~

oh yea. yest went medical camp~ love it~ cos it was so relaxing n somehow get to know who r the Drs... haha. cos normally i always mixed up this is that, that is this~ lol.. they r specialist but i dunno them.. so sorry to those specialist ~ haha.. but my hosp now got no specialist oso~ hehe...

ok. stop here.. i m waiting for next yr august to come~ wei, u all, don ffk~~

Reported duty in Hospital Papar for 1/2 a month dy. Hospital Papar, a district hospital which is about 1 hour away from my house, is considered the nearest district hospital to Kota Kinabalu. Consider lucky to get this hospital as everyone of my batch who r throw away .. are really being thrown far away. Got another one got hospital kota belud, which is around 1 hour away from KK as well. The locals are all being thrown out.. none of the locals being retained in anywhere in KK, not in hosp QE, not in hosp Likas, not in hosp Bukit Padang, not in PBFN, and not in enforcement as well. For ur information, these 5 sites are all located in Kota Kinabalu... so.. none of the locals being retained in KK. Keningau got 2 (2 hrs ++ away), Tenom got 2 (3hrs ++ away), Kota Marudu got 1 (2 hrs away), Beaufort got 1 (2 hrs away), Kuala Penyu got 1 (2 hrs away), Papar got 1, Kota Belud got 1. . . . Those orang tawau also all kena buang out of tawau....

A store pharmacist which i will only need to sign this sign that.. and nothing else to do. Actually i was being asked to go for induksi this coming november, but who know my boss doesnt let me go. He said cannot both pharmacist also go for induksi at the same time, n who will in charge of the pharmacy? .. so no choice n i cannot attend this coming induksi with my fellow friends.

Ok. Attended meeting once with all the ketua units and pengarah and the meeting was kinda relaxing as everyone is like discussing and making fun of it, n not the so serious meeting. Kinda like this type of situation but hopefully i m not gonna attend so many meetings in the future... being a big fish in a small hospital, u can really learn a lot, but more on management rather than on pharmaceutical care. . .

Guess that's all to share with. Update again sometimes later~ life is boring ~ ~ ~

在inpatient的日子果然是不好过。我不喜欢他们有的系统， 没有坚定的立场！那么所谓的C/S到底是为了什么呢？定的所有的规则是为了什么呢？所有人都没什么沟通。。 。他们说给，你又不想给。。实在是好难做人啊！

在 outpatient 的日子却是忙到不行。。新的PRP们也实在太可爱了！ＩＭＵＢＰＨＡＲＭ的可爱，ＬＯＣＡＬＵＮＩ的是成熟。全部都是ＬＯＣＡＬ人。。　谈啊谈啊。。　不是跟我同中学，就是更我同大学，有个甚至是跟我同小学的！太奥妙了！她说是中华小学的，第二句话就是：哦，跳舞的，每次老师都放你在前面的，跳主角的。。。哦，她太记得了吧！哈哈。。

ＱＵＥＥＮ的日子得结束了。。得开始新的医院的生活了！有点期待的，也有点懒的去报到。ＴＡＷＡＵ的朋友们也都没被留下在那儿的医院。也被派到瞒远的地方呢！

好想去ＫＬ旅行，见见朋友。要不就去外国玩玩吧！！！

And yes, i m done with all my attachments in all the departments! considered finished my prp life of a year! n starting next month, i m the frp already! but i still think that i don;t realli have much knowledge in all the medications! can i realli cope with it when i m a frp already?

I m scared with the posting that i will get in the coming week. Not so sure where will i be posted to .. maybe districts or maybe retain or mayb in KK (Kota Kinabalu) area. Sandakan prps are damn lucky.. 3 guys.. a guy got posted to Hosp BP in Kota Kinabalu (it's his 1st choice) and b4 this everyone has been telling us that hosp BP doesn't need any extra pharmacists anymore. N now they are accepting him. Lucky him, isn't it? The other 2 guys got retained in HDOK. How lucky r them?!

Wish for the best! Thinking a lot of times where shud i go? .. .. .. .. .. ..

Dreams in these few days are quite interesting! haha.. (not related)

Needa settle a lot of things by then....

Wishing to meet the new prps coming in!!! another week more..

n i m on call for tdm this week.. n in another 2 weeks time, it's my turn again... Why is it me again as the 1st caller?

Fluctuating mood now....

Dunno what m i thinking....

Less and less frens around....

Boring ....

Speechless

It has been a while since my last update! n was browsing through some photos of mine taken these few months. Something that i wanna show here!

Picture showing the largest flower in the world, or better known as a genus of parasitic flowering plants, according to wikipedia. Yea. Went to kundasang and to Hot Spring Poring, and on the way back, saw a banner on the rafflesia and thus we stopped by for a visit! 1st time visit for this flower and each of us need to pay for RM10 per person! that's so expensive! n thus request for just RM5 per person n the owner agrees. The flower is grown somewhere at some villagers' area, n thus they can just open for visit of publics! but it's 1st time visit n thus we just go for it! n the flower isn't smelly at all.... and i thought it was super huge, but not as what i thought too!~

Finally the prps in my hospital who are retained in Sabah, know where they will be posted to as frp! keningau, tenom, beaufort, kuala penyu, kinabatangan, QEH and hosp likas... the lucky ones got retain in KK.. n mostly got posted to districts.. can't imagine where will i be posted to when it's my turn to become frp! three more weeks to go!~

Well, just hope everything gets fine ........ wish for the best!

Why is life so like that? i hate the life nowadays. no opd again... i hate that so much! becos of the ppl there! and u r the boss, can't u just be polite a bit? haiyoyo.

haih. 24 hours service gotta start in our hospital, starting next month. Heard that other hospital wanna stop this service already but we just wanna to begin it! that's like so scary! work during midnight with another PA onli.. 2 ppl onli at that scary and quiet place! how to realli get through that 6 hours ... with opened counter!

Life is boring! wei, syt.... let's go kuching!!! n when u coming over?
aiz... say say say.. faster come over here n let's go for mt kinabalu ba!
or we shud jus go kuching to visit our frens over there 1st?

Ok. Currently in store n it's boring! finally finished my 2nd CPE... so happy ba! but got journal presentation and research project to do some more! so many things.. unfinished job!

19 June 2008
Being alone as a prp in enforcement this whole week. Waiting for Mr PRP to come next week. Left 2 weeks in enforcement, n i think i will get used to this kind of office work if i m to be kept for longer time! 2 months in enforcement!!! n i did a lot of things..

Been to do a lot of checkings in lesen A, B, permit NaOH, clinics... really a lot... n so far, the furthest place i went is to Tuaran. Not to say very far also ... around 1/2 hour to reach Tuaran Town, but to get to the Lembaga Getah place for permit NaOH checking, it takes around 20 minutes to get into the end of the small n wavy road! n 20 minutes to come out from there also. 7 clinics checking plus 2 NaOH permit checking, just spent one whole morning!

Alone in enforcement for a week n u can know that the life sucks! first day, read newspaper whole day, 2nd day at least stil got things to do, 3rd day, went to court, n finally i get to go to court, so happy, but din get to see case on pharmacy pula, cos PNG, 4th day, which is today, do CPF3 lo... kira costing of rampasan... tml... got party to farewell a penolong pengarah.. n i get to eat free food again... i have been eating a lot of free food during attachment in enforcement oh!!! good good...

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