So sad so sad..

What a day for me!
I am home alone...
And i start to feel so lonely...
I just wanna cry out loud to release all the tensions...
I am always home alone anyway... Mother went over to bro's hse but i don't wanna join..
I am so anti-social to go n meet anymore new friends.. i don't need them...
This is the first time of being home alone that i am so so so so sad of...
Home alone is always a norm in my life actually... Life is ok without anyone...

A message from last week during the church session:
Pastor asked: Who thinks that he/she doesnt have someone that knows him/her well?

The first thought for me is definitely a --> I don't have one!
But, 2nd thought is --> i have one.

So which is the real thought?

There's something imprinted in my mind! i m so sad for that..

Again, still sad for a lot of things..

I think i m in the down part of my life again... everything seems so unwell, and not smooth..

Why whatever i want to get doesn't come into my hand? Why there's always no chance for me?

what can i do now? i hate everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aiks.......

Transfer?

Waiting for my transfer but it's still in the waiting list.

Now i know how do the people waiting for their turns to get transfer feels like.

Why can't i get mine but they are just retaining those fresh frp in big hospital.

Why can't they just send those people to districts while let us all back to big hospital?

Working in small hospital is a bit too boring dy. The people there also limited, gossips are limited,

stories are limited, drugs are limited, learning are limited, talks are limited, what also limited.

So how can they be so not fair!

issshhhh...

They should be fair to everyone!! aiks...

Why do people in other states get transfer so easily? but not us in sabah??!!

Aaiiikkkssss....

最近

最近生活开始越来越乏味了

重复地做回同样的东西。

好闷啊。

但也只求赚些钱吧。。

还有什么是可以做的呢？

没有别人的督促，没有什么压力，觉得想做就做，不想做就不做。。这也太有性格了吧！

真想要有一个快乐的旅程。但没有同伴啊！

得去游一游泳了。。。

气死我了

气死我了。。烦死我了

最近真的是太多的东西气死我了。。

难道人的命运到一个时候总会跌到底潮吗？

一个一个事情接踵而来。。 为何我希望那件事情可以交代给xxx，可是到头来还是自己得啃？

当正在面临很多的烦恼时，一些无聊的人却惹来一大堆的事情啊。。

真想一切都不用再我的掌权之下，顺人家意就好了。。

还一整天为了一个无聊没有根据的事情在烦。。

别以为你是谁啦。。。

想想想想

最近头脑里实在是太多的烦恼了。。

有钱烦，没钱烦
有工烦，没工烦

真是不知如何是好。。

A getaway~

Again, it has been a long time. Things have been going on smoothly, with the care and love of the lovessss onesss... But still facing some challenges in the working place, with all the construction work and designer work being carried out by me. Ehem, am i an architecture aka constructor? Anyway, just do what i can, but if more than that which i can't deal of, i will just let it to be.

Had a short trip to kl recently. Went to sunway lagoon, and i tried out the FIREFOX! wow, thought it will be super scary, but .... ok ok la. Only the moment that's scary is when u will let go of yourself and start sliding towards the end! But never try out the G-FORCE.

And i also finally dare to play FLYING COASTER, and also CORK SCREW, which before this i never play before. It's so fun and relax sitting on the first row for the cork screw! muahahha.. 25 years already, the first time to try out these 2 things.

Yea yea. Doing somethings that i don't dare to do is really fascinating. And this year, i am going for a MERCY trip which i was hoping for, for few years already! Hope everything will be interesting too~ yipppi....

Random~

It's all about YOUR heart!
Been thinking of that incident again n again recently when i chatted with my friends. It's really a forever hurt in both of us.. i m thoroughly ok with it and had forgotten about it. But u doesn't seem to forget about it! sometimes ignoring is just the best solution. Just to say: no fate! maybe we are not fated to be friends? sometimes things aren't so serious as what u had been thinking all along. Never had anyone will know what had happened also. And it's all on you yourself. Or if any other people knew about it, it's all about they knowing you deeply where u will share with them. Anyway. I don't c any seriousness there. For me, life is just life. You go through the ups n downs in life! Have to learn to be strong whenever you met something difficult or challenging. It's not about being mad forever and ever and ever and not going to talk with anyone who you are not liking! That's not a good characteristic a person should possess!! And it's not the best cure in life. Still the same, i don't really take into seriousness all these tiny little things.

Ok. Not important wat was it all about!

Just went KL for a course - wasting tax payer money - or should i say workshop, n get to stay back there for 2 days just to meet up some of this uni frens! The still love crapping friends. And thanks a lot for TYM for providing accomodation for me!! hehe.. thanks thanks. N thanks for bringing around! And also... i think when life goes on n on, things change, people change, environment change, and everything change. It's all about LIFE.

Lovely days are around! Thought that my hospital only got 2 pegawai u41 posts n there another new frp just reported duty to my hospital yest! good good.. routine change when someone new coming in. There are lots of new sisters reporting in my hospital, n also a new pegawai sains, a new x-ray staff, new ppk, new nurses.. and where is the new MOs?? i think we need MOs the most, n this is what pengarah thinking... muahahha. but pengarah will be leaving soon as well. scared scared scared!!~~ scared the new pengarah! hopefully he will be a nice one too~~ hehe...

Ok, Life is great at this moment!! loving loving u.. muahahha... k k ... bye everyone~~

Stress-ness...

Think that it's been a long time since my last handling of the pharmacy by myself! i hate to be in charge! there r so many things which will directed to u.. n u have to make the decision. N i think i did a lot of bad decisions during these few days... which when i think back, i get stressed... so hope everything goes well ... i think my knowledge on drugs get bad day by day... it's almost a year in hospital papar and i think i will get rusty for being here any time longer... i shud jus go somewhere else? but if i m being transferred to some big hospital, and when i m to be in charge of a department, i wil get stressed as well! haih... this is the PnP punya life... i don like ler.. err, is it tat i prefer to b a follower??? it's not too stress la if being a follower. being a boss is like u have to handle everything from the tip to the bottom... sien.. sien.. sien.. mayb i jus read more n get myself filled wif more knowledge ba... stress... hiah haih haih haih haih haih haih haih haih... how how how how how how how how how??????? to give or not to give? to control or not to control? stresss.... pls la don bomb me wif anything else lagi. i wouldn't like to deal wif all these things anymore................. sien........

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